Walking without fear

I walked today at lunchtime along my usual route. My stroll took me past the place where my awakening occurred eleven days ago. What is remarkable since that day is that I now walk through the world completely without fear.

This would have been an impossibility before. There was always something to fear: an awkward look from a stranger, a noisy bunch of youths jostling each other as they walk towards me, have I forgotten some important task at work? Fear went with me everywhere I went and while I tried to remain mindful of it, nevertheless it was still there.

Not now. Now there is perfect peace, perfect equanimity. I can reflect that I have been given perhaps the most precious gift one can receive. Interestingly, I did notice today that the triggers for fear are still there the same as ever. As I crossed one road I spotted a jogger heading towards me on the side I was crossing to. Ahead a bus stop narrowed the pavement and in order not to inconvenience her I tried to get past this to the wider pavement before she reached me.

This expectation started a reaction. Before I could get past the bus stop the jogger was level with me. There was a response from my body which formerly would have resulted in a small yet significant amount of adrenaline and a corresponding jolt of fear. But… there was nothing. The response could not connect, it had nothing to connect to. The sensation was like pulling the trigger on an unloaded gun – a click but no bang. I walked on unperturbed as I walk on at all times.

Perfect peace, perfect equanimity and desirelessness. I no longer feel my attention drawn out onto external objects or pressed in upon by the outside world. Now all is even because all is one. At-one-ment.

3 thoughts on “Walking without fear

  1. Thanks for that Andrew. I think it is this fear that brought me to the spiritual path and eventually non duality. I have mainly read western writers and Tony Parsons seems to feel right for myself (ahah). He lays it out in such a simple manner no number of steps or levels .

    Thank you again Peter

    • Thanks Peter. There’s a certain irony in taking ownership of our own inquiry into seeing there is no ‘owner’ but once we do that we’re able to expect less and appreciate more the pointers offered by guides such as Tony Parsons. If his approach resonates with you then keep Inquiring in that direction. It’s about finding the right current for our own raft.

      • Now where have I heard that before. Row, row, row your boat. Gently down the stream, Merrily merrily, merrily, merrily. Life is but a dream.
        Cheers Andrew

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